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19th Jun 2025

5 - Who the h*ll am I?

In this first solo episode, I open up about my own journey of becoming a mother and returning to work. The disorientation, the guilt, the tears and the transformation that followed.

If you’ve ever asked yourself, “Who the h*ll am I now?” after becoming a mother, this one's for you.

I share how discovering matrescence — the transformation of a woman to a mother — changed everything for me. From feeling lost, anxious and unseen, to finding clarity, purpose and confidence. And a lot of letting go of the things that no longer served me.

MOTHERS’ HOOD

If this episode or any other resonated with you, I'd love to hear from you. Email me:

samantha@mothershood.co.uk

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www.mothershood.co.uk

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About the Podcast

you've had a baby...not a lobotomy
We should be mothering amongst the stories of motherhood - its complexities, joys and challenges. We should have been supported and mentored through it, with the knowledge being passed down from generation to generation.

But today we mother largely in isolation, away from our families, friends and communities. It was never meant to be this way.

Without all of this we lack the reference to make sense of our own experiences and the language to express how we are feeling. It leaves mothers feeling disconnected, lost and believing there is something wrong with them.

'You've had a baby not a lobotomy' is a podcast lifting the lid on motherhood, bringing you real, raw and honest stories from real mothers - with no experts or gurus.

It challenges the damaging modern narrative of the perfect mother and celebrates mothers thriving in modern motherhood, doing it their own, damn way!